The Mesmerized

So much to do...!





2012-04-03

Things are bad with my sister. And sadly I'm irritated by it. I know she's having a hard time, a really hard time, and her diagnosis isn't making it any easier, but she's putting too much pressure on my parents. They're basically climbing the walls, trying to help her, but there is no use. As long as she doesn't want to help herself, there is little to nothing we can do. And of course I want to help as much as -I- can, but I'm sort of stuck right in the middle of all of this. I don't want to bother my parents with -my- tiny problems, and I don't want to argue or put my worries on my sister, heck that's the last thing I want. So I'm just... floating around? Trying to take up as little space as possible, running to E whenever things get to hard and I need someone to talk to. He's an angel, he really is. I have never ever met someone as unselfish as him, it seems like he always has a spare minute or two for me, no matter what he's doing. He's my lifeline and I would probably not make it without him.

Short, whiny post, but I just need to spill my beans a little, so to speak.


Here, have an awesome picture that pretty much says it all.

Okaaaaaaaaaaaay so I've been super productive this weekend. Me, Erik and Herman made a mold out of my head so that I'll have myself to sculpt on later, haha. It was super creepy, being all covered in alginate and plaster, sitting still for two hours, but it will hopefully be all worth it <3 I will post some pictures of the entire process when it's finished.





This is the final design (hopefully) of my Irikah dress. I colored it in four different ways 'cause I can't decide. I'll probably go with the purple one, because it's the less bright one, and will probably match Thane's clothing better. But we'll see!

Tomorrow I'll start sculpting, just waiting for plaster-me to dry up right now, and then (if I'm not working tomorrow) I'll spend the entire day sculpting Irikah's pretty little head on it. Then make a negative out of plaster again, and throw on some latex, and voila, done!



2011-01-23

I'm about to blow up, I think.

E and I decided to do Thane and Irikah Krios cosplays, and I have never been so excited! Might have something to do with this slight drell-obsession that grabbed a hold of me some weeks ago, but it's still awesome.

We also had E to join us as Kolyat, which is great cause then I'll have both a husband and a son, haha <3





I'm super excited about this project, which is what I'll be working on for a while now, hopefully finished in time for WhateverCon in a month. I just need to finish drawing my dress and sewing E's leather jacket, and then of course make moulds for our heads and start sculpting. So much fun!

It was a while since I was obsessed with something to this level, and I love it. It gives me an extra layer of thoughts every time I'm bored. At work or at home, it expands my fantasy just a little, and I love it. For now, me and E also have his parents apartment for ourselves, which means LOTS of work to be done during the weekend. Looking forward to it <3


2012-01-20

My inspiration is finally returning to me. I'm so excited about some new projects right now that I don't know how to deal with all this happiness!

Erik and me started playing Mass Effect 2, and I have to declare it my new favourite game. Mostly because me and Erik are playing it together, since our conversations makes the game about 20% cooler and more fun than ever. So we started planning some Mass Effect cosplays, and I can barely contain my excitement!





I have to chose one, though, and fight the urge to cosplay everything. I want to do Tali'zorah, Thane, Garrus, Mordin, Saren, everything. And Erik too. So this will be a fun spring, especially because of the release of Mass Effect 3, hooray!

Haven't yet decided if I want to do Mass Effect for CosplaySM, but I might. Will see how it turns out and how much time and money I'll have. Anyway I'm so glad to have my inspiration back, and to finally be back in another "phase" that I can fawn over. I left the Portal phase ages ago :(

Anypoo, I'll spend my next days planning, drawing and plotting for my new costume(s). I also have a secret project with L that I'll have to start working on soon, to be worn at UppCon!


I love being obsessed with something <3

Right, things are looking better!

I still need to stop slacking of with my work, but this week I got real reasons, so stfu.

I decided to create my turret-cosplay at FULL SPEED and try to wear it at DreamHack this weekend. The costume itself isn't a problem, it's basically done already, but hte problem is my miniature turret that I will carry with me. The base is done, it's drying up in the garage atm, and tomorrow I will carve it. Hopefully it will get done, I'll try my best!

My wig arrived as well as my headphones, and I'm super excited. This is a super blurry pic, but it shows off the wig at least. Excitement!


Now I just hope E will finish his Rattmann-costume to match mine, and we're all set! Will post pictures if we make it (lol).

Also started listening to Simple Plan again. I missed them

Okay. Back. After three days of...puking. Barfing. Throwing up. Emptying my stomach. Right.

I hate being sick. I do have a never ending love for my bed, but it's not enough to make me stay in it for three days. Seriously, no. I would have died out of boredom if it wasn't for my phone <3 Seriously, Youtube is your best friend when you're too sick to leave your bed.

Anyway, it led to many new awesome videos being discovered.

Like this one <3